Cymbals & Bison 101
Hi there!
I just wanted to make a short introduction before writing about anything else. I’m Deniz, currently living in the Netherlands. I’m originally from Türkiye and moved to the Netherlands in 2022 with my husband. If you check the About page, you can see me and my cat, Lokum, in the picture! Although I have an Instagram account, I rarely share my private life there these days. So from now on, I will refer to anything related to my private life as “magazine” here. And I’d like to keep the magazine section limited on this blog. Of course some thoughts or questions I’ll write about in this blog will be related to my life or my surroundings, but not like sharing all about me and my life.
Why did I create this blog? The simple answer is that I like writing. Of course, not literature writing :) I love writing essays, learning new things through writing, questioning my ideas by writing, and going through old pages year by year to see how my life and thoughts have changed.
I started writing at the age of nine with a very fancy journal that still holds my childish, innocent, and sometimes very silly writings. I wrote daily for a long time, but after university it became less frequent, and after starting work life, it became rare. Writing keeps me active, encourages me to learn new things, and makes me feel grounded. For the last one and a half years, I’ve had the urge to start writing again, this time through a blog. I hesitated a lot about creating one and sharing things publicly, but enough thinking. I decided to go with the flow.
What is the name of your blog? Again, the answer is very simple: it happened by mistake. I had no idea how to purchase a domain or create a blog. I rushed and first created the blog using the default domain name given by Squarespace. Afterwards, I tried to change the domain name because I had some nice ideas in mind, but obviously I wasn’t successful.
Anyway, after repeating the name in my mind for a few days, I think I got used to it hahah. So yes, it happened by mistake. There’s no deep meaning behind it, but strangely, I feel good about it. I don’t know how to translate this into English, but I started calling my blog “Zilli Bizon” in Turkish.
The main languages of this blog are English and Turkish. English is not my mother tongue, and sometimes I feel insecure about it, but that insecurity also pushes me to write in English. Besides English, there will also be Turkish. I don’t know why, but the idea of not writing anything in Turkish makes me sad.
All my feelings; my laughter, excitement, humour, enlightenment, sadness, and confusion feel fully alive in this language. Both languages feed me in different ways, so I cannot leave either of them behind. I hope this doesn’t make the blog confusing, and that you enjoy reading it in whichever language you prefer.
What will I write about? Whatever I want: daily life, routines, books, trips, lessons and learnings, questioning ideas, and shining a light on things that deserve praise.
It is so exciting to finally start this, and I hope some of you will walk this path together with me and enjoy it along the way. We live in a fast-paced world, and consuming things quickly has become our new normal. Work is busy, life is busy. I’m not resisting time itself, but I am resisting living on autopilot just because everything moves too fast.
Reading this blog will require more time than scrolling through photos. I hope you feel more grounded and connected to your own pace while reading this blog, just as I do while writing it.
Sonraki yazıda görüşmek üzere!
Until the next post!
Deniz
